Needing a topic
Sometimes I understand when my students talk about not knowing what to say in English. I feel like that recently. In Chinese, but also in English. With people whose English is quite capable, even. What should I talk about? Did I get like this in the U.S.? It feels even more important here…when if I don’t make conversation, sometimes people assume I can’t or don’t want to talk to them.
I feel a bit fatigued. But I think that I got like that in the U.S., too. Sometimes I like being a loner. I know I need community, that is good and holy and character-building, but sometimes I wish I could just live by myself and watch an entire season of Gilmore Girls DVDs like Eunice did.
Maybe it’s adventurous to live in another country, but it isn’t always exciting. Sometimes I just want to sleep and read books and make peanut butter cookies and not answer any more questions about the U.S.A.
That said, everyone is harvesting rapeseed (canola)–beating them with these big poles. Is the word threshing? In Chinese, it’s just “hitting.” It reminds me of all these Bible parables.
Tags: China, Jiangyou
Christina
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