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The Itinerary:

1/14/09 – Surin to Sangka (Thailand) =50k
Sweet paved road, Mike glided ahead of me on his new TREK.  We were both uber excited about this adventure!
1/15/09 – Sangka to Anlong Veng (Cambodia) =60k
Crazy hill up up up then down down down!  As soon as we entered Cambodia the road changed to dirt.  Red dusty dirt that makes you think you’re tan; but you’re just dirty.  You breathe it, it gets in your eyes, ears, nose, mouth.  The road was bumpy and full of construction.  The roadside vegetation was half reddishbrown and half green.
1/16/09 – Anlong Veng to Sa-aem = 82k
Same road, looooong day. 
1/17/09 – Sa-aem to LOST to Preah Vihear = 55k
Day of bad luck.  Mike’s bike broke, we got lost, and rode up to our guesthouse in the dark.  We did have two military angels guide our way over the rediculously potholed sandpits they were calling ‘roads.’
1/18/09 – Preah Vihear to Choam Khsan = 55k
A short sweet day.  We decided to hang here a few days and do some motorbike remote temple exploring. 
1/21/09 – Choam Khsan to Kulen = 84k
Went about 60k with no houses or shops.  Did I mention Mike lost his water bottle on this day?  We were thiiiiirsty!
1/22/09 – Kulen to Sroyong = 20k
Spent the remainder of the day biking around Koh Ker temples.
1/23/09 – Sroyong to Nearby Village = 50k
Met a young Khmer guy who offered us a room in his home for the night.  His brothers were there and invited us to eat delicious homecooked dinner.  Fish, rice, all kinds of sauces and curries and yum.  We slept on a wooden bed.  It was wonderful!
1/24/09 – Village to Siem Reap = 36k
An exciting day to go to the city!  Stayed in the city a week and some waiting for visas to go through.  Did yoga, an 8 day lemon fast, and partied with Angkor Association of the Disabled a bit.  Cycled the big temples for one day.  Mike took most of the pictures, I’ll post them when I can get them from him some day.

Now: 
Mike’s continuing his cycling journey solo through southern Laos and up into northern Thailand. 

And me?!? I’m going to learn about chakras and yoga in the jungle of Koh Phangan island!!! 

See you in three months!  xoxoxxoxo
!!LOVE!!

Just off the train, 4:30 a.m. Surin, Thailand. 

Can’t sleep, too excited to get going.  So what do I do?  Go.  Dropped my saddlebags at the nearest hotel, reserved a room for the evening, and through the moonlaced early morning I peddled my heart out.  Flew my way instinctually through town, drawing in towards water, trees, open land.  Drawing down the moon. 

Eventually, I came across a market.  The cool morning air permeated the new purple fleece I was wearing, so in need of some warmth before the sun rises I park and wander around the flourescent light and steam filled canopies that lace the street.  An oasis in a traveler’s desert.  All kinds of fresh yummy things.  Piles and piles of fresh brightly colored fruits, dried roasted meat on sticks, rice noodle sweet treats filled with who knows what, noodles boiling over a wood burning fire.  I opted for some cha rawn (hot thai tea with loads of sweetened condensed milk) and a sort of delicious fried dough.  I sat on a wooden plank amidst dead fish and squids on ice and watched the lady shopkeeper brew my tea and pour it at a perfect angle from two feet up in the air.  A spectacular thing to view before the sun is up in the morning. 

Cute young thai boys with faux-hawks and black clothing gawk at me; the weird foreigner.  The shopkeeper and I get involved in a little small talk, I pay my 10 baht bill, and run out from under the awning to see a lit sky.  Not lit, like fire alight.  But lit like glow in the dark paint.  The sun hasn’t risen over the mountains just yet but the sky is almost blinding me with it’s brilliance. 

And I wrote:  “I’m alive.  I’m feeling things that pulse through my veins and keep me buzzing.  I’m so grateful for this chance at life.  I really am.  No joke.”

I have more to tell, more to write, more to jumble up and confuse the hell out of any reader.  But today I’m going to wait.  I’m going to get a massage.  A cambodian massage.  Why?  Because my lovely ever-thoughtful family sent me tons of birthday and christmas money… without even realizing that YES I CAN use my dollars in Cambodia!  And massages are only 4$! 

After this said massage I am going to hang out with some disabled Cambodian people.  I haven’t really met them yet, but I went to a party at their house last night.  The dancing was rediculous; the choice of music even more so.  I had a ball, they folks were great dancers… full of so much energy. 

Most of the people who live there are disabled from UXOs or bombs.  During the Vietnam war America thought a lot of the communists were hiding in Cambodia (and Laos… and Vietnam…)  So we dropped a bunch of bombs.  But lots didn’t go off.  And now they’re know as UneXploded Ordinances (UXOs.)  Many people have gotten blown up and killed since then, which they say isn’t so bad.  But they say getting blown up and surviving is way worse.  Khmer people believe if something bad happens to you in this life, it’s because you were really bad in your previous life.  They believe you deserve it.  Even if you’re a baby with one arm.  Even if you develop polio.  Even if you stepped on a bomb the American’s dropped and you are now a double amputee.  They are shunned from the community and left to beg on the dirty streets.  There are some NGOs here to help these bomb survivors get their lives back into some sort of order.  They teach them English and different skills.  Some dance and sing.  Some play music.  Some can make stuff.  They’re just real people under unfortunate circumstances.  It’s not fair

And the worst part?  All the bomb clearing companies who are trying to help are from: Japan, France, Korea, England, etc… (don’t you think the people who made the mess should clean it up?  But they don’t.) 

I’m mad at America.  I’m mad about all that.

But I’ll do what I can do.  We all do.  I want to save everyone sometimes.  Don’t we all? 
I can’t forget to remember to help myself first. 

I’m safe by the way!  No worries!  I’m happy and healthy!  I’ll write the bike journey stuff soon.  Lovelalalovelove you!

What a crazy month!  I’ve been surrounded by love and east coast pride for the last few weeks.  I can’t describe what it has been like to ‘tawk’ and ‘wawk’ and drink ‘wudder’ and ‘cawfee’ with these amazing folks.  Aimee arrived from Korea for her one week winter break.  We spent most of our time laughing, singing, and interupting the hell out of each other.  Lovely girl that Aimee, thanks Sara Casey!

 Genevieve arrived on new years eve morning.  She ran off the runway of the airport and nearly knocked me over with the biggest grandest hug I’ve ever received.  Oh, we’ve had a great time, despite her many ‘accidents’ (we keep joking we’re going to get her a bubble.)  In the last week and a half she’s sprained her ankle walking, busted her knee, got a terrible sunburn, and got some sort of inner bone pain (that we’re still not sure what it is).  Mike and I have been taking care of her, and she’s been loving the beach, massages, and curry.  She said to me just today, ‘You know, I can’ finally see why you haven’t come home!’  She loves it here.

 And now, it’s time to depart.  I’m off on another adventure, a Cambodian cycling solo mission.  I just packed up my cammo saddle bags and cleaned out my room at Pi Eet’s house.  As my time in Surat comes to a close, I can’t help but remember all the crazy folks I’ve met and the fantastic adventures that have ensued.  I love this place and the people.  I am already pretty sad to leave, but the excitement getting back on the road with velo is cancelling it out.  I’m going to stay around Preah Vihear in northern Cambodia, where there are lost hidden Angkor Wat temples that are just dying for me to discover them.  I know it.  After I renew my visa in Phenom Penh, it’s PYRAMID TIME! 

 Yoga yoga yoga!  Oh how I love yoga!  And bicycles!  And singing!  And LIFE!  I REALLY LOVE LIFE!  And you!  I love you too!!!

I constantly remind everyone of how the ‘universe always delivers.’  And how about this.  Just as I am a bit tired and lonely of traveling alone… I oh-so-randomly run into a comical and friendly foreigner.  Here is how it happened. 

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I’m glad to write this update.  Mostly because for the first time in my existence I created a plan, stuck with it, and succeeded in completing the first leg of my journey! 

This trip has been entirely selfish. I’m not riding for any cause or donating money to a charity (though I think sometimes that maybe I should… hmm..?)  I love to test myself and my limits.  I first and foremost want to know my breaking point; how much does it take to make me crack?  Second, (as taken from The Art of Travel) “my motive was simple and hedonistic:  I was looking for beauty.  ‘Delight and enliven me!’ was my implicit challenge!” 

I feel more alive than I have ever in my life.  The molecules of my body are buzzing.  I’m having moments of clarity all day long.. like when you see the wind whip through the branches of some tree, eclipsing the sunlight, and for a flash of a moment you feel you understand ‘it all.’  I’ve been writing a ton, lots of old and new ideas are germinating in this brain.  It’s mostly nonsensical, but this ride has returned me to myself.  Thank you, universe.

Here are the specifics of my ride so far:
(The kilometer markings are, of course, estimates.  I’ve learned two major lessons while riding.  First, don’t trust mile markers.  They often are 5-10 km off, and come in varying orders. Second, don’t trust maps.  Vietnam is growing so fast, new roads and tunnels and road names make it impossible to follow any kind of a strict plan. 

June 28:  Bought the bike, helmet, got saddlebags made, got tools, ready to go!
June 29:  Hanoi to Hoa Binh (75k)– The traffic getting out of the city was miserable!  After just a few short hours I was into rice paddies and hills in the distance.  Ahhhh, fresh air!  Less frequent air horns!  Yay!
June 30:  Hoa Binh to Mai Chau (66k)– This day broke me into pieces.  The heat, the intense uphills (there were MANY around 10%!), the lack of water and oxygen, the incessant “Hellooooo” and “waa waa waa” of the airhorn were too much to handle.  After about two hours of walking an extra long stretch of uphill (11.5k) I slumped under a bamboo shack.  A few other truckers were there.  I felt my heart pounding in my chest, head light, eyes brimming with tears.  I tried to chit chat with the truckers, choking back tears that cried, “Someone save me! I can’t do this!”  A truck driver offered me a ride to Mai Chau.  I showed him my map of the uphill, he explained that the peak of the hill is in two kilometers.  I rested my weary legs, drank some of the truckers water, and waved them along.  With my old sensei’s words ringing in my ears Marthaa….. Neverrr giiivvve upppp!!!  I suited up, gloves, shades, helmet, GO!  I remember ever second of those last two kilometers.  As the hill flattened and I was able to ride, a glance to the sky showed a quick moving storm.  Just as I reached the top, the scenic view of a downhill gliiiiiide into Mai Chau, I feel the first raindrop.  I hurry to shelter, a family selling ears of corn let me hide during the downpour.  Once it lightened up a bit, I suited up in my oblong maroon poncho (perfect for fitting just over the handlebars!) and coasted ever so graciously into the depths of the valley.  I went fast. The wind tore my helmet back off my head.  The vinyl poncho whipped behind me as I passed some extra careful motorbikes with a loud “HELLO!” and a big grin.  After this day I stayed in Mai Chau for a few days to recoup.  I redesigned my plan to exclude the intense terrain of Vietnam’s northwest, opting instead for the flat fertile plains in the central north.
July 3:  Mai Chau to Quan Hoa (45k)– A short day ended in a home-stay in a small village, new Vietnamese family and friends, eating about 35 mangoes in two days, and lots of language learning.
July 5:  Quan Hoa to Ngoc Lac (60k)– I accidentally ate dog meat at dinner with my hotel owners.  It tasted like rotten stinky dog breath and I almost yakked.  But, with grace and a terribly forced grin, I managed to swallow and excuse myself as the hotel owner’s husband started sucking the marrow out of the dog jaw bone.  (Sorry!  It had to be mentioned!)
July 7:  Ngoc Lac to Xuan Tho (100k)– I came across a church on this long ride, and remembering Oma’s words in one of her previous letters If you are ever in trouble, seek out the church….so I rode up and asked if I could stay.  The woman was terribly angry with me for disturbing the peace and quiet of the grounds around the church.  She kept motioning to me “The priests are praying, be quiet!”  It felt more like a monastery.  The woman said, no, I could not sleep at the church.  It was not safe.  (????)  I could not camp.  I could not sleep in the extra bedroom I found when I was looking for someone who worked there.  I also could not sleep on the roof balcony, with a beautiful view of the mountains.  The woman turned me down, question after question, even when I threw her the puppy dog sad eyes.  I told her I was born a Catholic, but it didn’t matter.  She pointed down the road the way I came and said the closest hotel was about 20 kilometers backwards.  NO WAY.  I continued on another 15, finally found a cafe as it was getting dark, explained my predicament to the cafe owner (Toi kawm khach san: I no hotel.  Toi zuht met: I very tired.  Toi la zao vien, di xe dap Viet:  I am teacher, go bicycle Vietnam.)  This sweet wonderful mother cooked me up some ramen and eggs, fed me beer and peanut brittle, offered me her shower, and kicked her 18 year old son out of bed so that I could sleep.  I have never been more grateful!
July 8:  Xuan Tho to Tan Ky (50k)
July 9:  Tan Ky to Cua Lo (95k)– My first day lost.  I listened to music while riding today, got distracted for 40 k, and ended up 40 k east of where I wanted to be.  It worked out though, because I ended up at a beautiful empty beach where I watched the sun set and rise, and built a driftwood campfire.  It was lovely.
July 10:  Cua Lo to Nam Dan (45k)– Nam Dan is supposedly the birthplace of Ho Chi Minh.  I’ve been reading this excellent book about the American war in Vietnam, and I’ve grown to love Uncle Ho.  He was a true visionary, and I believe if America followed through with our deal to give aid to the north and allow elections in all of Vietnam, he would have won by a landslide (he had about 80% popularity!)  But… oh America and our government’s love of guns and power and (especially) bombs.  It didn’t have to be the way it was.  Ho Chi Minh knew this, was well educated and traveled, and really believed in a better future.  It was really cool to see the house where he grew up, photos of him and his comrades conversing over jai (Vietnamese home grown tea). A nice guy on a motorbike showed me around, bought me lunch, coffee, tea, and about five stops to five different cafes on the way home (I think he was just showing me off!)  The name of this town translates to beautiful waters, and the area is just that.  Streams, lakes, rivers.  More lotus flowers than I’ve EVER EVER EVER seen.  Actually I’m not sure that I ever saw a real true lotus flower, standing tall and glorious over a field of muddy water and lily pads, before Nam Dan.  Hm.
July 11:  Nam Dan to Ha Tinh (70k) – A real big city with real big trucks.  I don’t enjoy sharing the road with these pollution-makers.
July 12:  Ha Tinh to Ngang Pass Beach (75k)– I just stopped off to drink some tea and lounge in a hammock for a few minutes.  The girl working convinced me to nod off, and I did for about an hour.  When I awoke, thankfully, my bike and possessions were just as I left them beside the tree where I rested.  I wandered around the property, to find the pristine white sandy beach cove totally uninhabited, as well as about five empty rooms with fans just sitting on the beach-front.  Decisions; sleep here…. ride bike up huge mountain pass…. of course I stayed!  I swam in the sea, made a pretty shell bracelet for the guest-house owner, and read, wrote, drew.  Felt so peaceful.  The sea will do that to you.
July 13:  Ngang Pass Beach to Phong Nha (65k)– Phong Nha is a national park in Vietnam known for its underground caves and grottoes.  I took a boat tour with a guy, his mom, and his son, who all spoke some English.  The son studies at an International School in Ho Chi Minh City, and stood towering over me (the first tall Vietnamese person I have met!)  Luckily, he translated all the tour information for me (Now we will go up 1,467 steps.  Is he joking?   I don’t think so!)  I had a nice rice and veggie dinner at the restaurant across from my hotel.  The owner’s friend kept coming by with her young daughter.  She was cared for by the owner’s eight year old daughter.  The toddler strolled right up to me, confidence exuding, and sat on my lap and peed on me, but it was okay. She was the sweetest smartest 16 month old I have ever met, but was treated so poorly.  She walked around so dirty, bare-bottomed, and treated like a dog.  If she made any sound or touched anything she was reprimanded, to the point of tears.  When she was sad and wanted a hug, she was pushed away or smacked with chopsticks.  I snatched her up and snuggled her as much as I could in the hour I stayed.  She counted the flowers in my book and I read to her in English.  She called me Me(mom) and settled back into my embrace almost falling asleep.  I returned back a few times in the next day to visit this sweet girl, I thought maybe she could soak up that bit of love and spread it out?  Oh, terrible aching sadness.
July 15:  Phong Nha to Dong Ha (150k)– I’m some sort of cycling maniac.  I don’t know what came over me on this day, but I rode all day, into the night, pushing on on on.  I’m not sure I’ll go that far again, It wasn’t very fun in the moment.  It was hot and my toes got sunburned.  But I treated myself to a nice hotel with a bathtub and hot water!  Ooh la la!

If my math is correct I have gone about 896 kilometers so far.  From here on, my plan is a bit in the air.  I’ll probably go through Laos in a few days (after riding to Hue, a big city with TOURISTS!  And PIZZA!)  Then south to Cambodia, and west into Thailand.  This is only as long as I don’t hear back from Park English in Korea… I have been corresponding with them about teaching English there from August to December.  If that’s possible, it would be great for me to do that, save some money, and maybe see my lovely ladies while I’m at it!  (I MISS YOU GIRLS!)  If not I’ll teach part time in Surat Thani or Chumpheon in Thailand.

 Toi com biet : I don’t know!

<photos soon to come, as soon as I find a computer with a working USB port!>