The Process of Being

Once upon a time, in a far away land, and even further, further away was I, from reality…I heard this song, and instead of freaking me out (as the other songs were doing), it piqued my interest. I heard this synthesized voice, –the kind that kidnappers use when making their ransom call, talk about the 13 crystal skulls and the mystery that surrounds these beings.

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Running Up That Hill

(it’s the soundtrack for this post)

All the misunderstandings, maybe I could’ve, we could’ve taken a step back and see where all the places where we don’t love ourselves instead of coming out of reaction, hurt and ego.

And I see how I still need to grow in more places, that I’m not perfect still, that I’m not so damn righteous, and where I want to just protect myself.

Finding the new ways of being, forging a new path, unknown, and still doing, being the best that I can. Why do I feel the need to be the best, most understanding, most enlightened person. I can only learn and do better the next time, I can only grow and be, when it stops who knows, whom I’ll be with God only knows. Why it feels and seems so important to me to be with a man, I don’t know. [read on]

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In this place of stillness, of openness in my heart after being attached to him and to the outcome, things are becoming more clear.For some reason, I thought I could stay with a man that ... [Continue reading this entry]