The Process of Being

What is it about songs from your childhood, that just takes you right there? It’s so crazy how that works, you embody the music, and it takes you back …like for instance, I’m listening to Get Into the Groove from the film Desperately Seeking Susan, by of course, the illustrious Madonna….

What does this evoke for me, for one, I was 13, in the 7th grade, was sort of shocked that I actually liked this song because I didn’t like following fads…and how she seemed so untouchable to me, how that kind of fame just is so fantastic, it’s just unfathomable.  Also, the video was in 24/7 rotation on Mtv, you know back in the day when they actually used to show videos.

It brings up the insecurities that I still possess and still deal with, Imight have been the only 13-year-old or at least I thought concerned with figuring out my life, hoping desperately for something better than life at 13 and wondering if I was ever going to be out of this body and be someone else, like in Desperately Seeking Susan…

But on a lighter note, it was also the first dance song that she had that I could dance to…and the video is forever burned into my memory, with each segment of the song, I can see the whole damn video…the weird albino chasing them at the end of the video.

I’m so glad I’m not 13, I wouldn’t trade my childhood for adulthood, never!

How poignant, and what a great reminder of what family is about.  Thomas, the pregnant man and his wife are challenging the ‘traditional’ family unit.  What makes a family?  Is it a man, a woman and child or children? Is it two mommies and children or a father’s roommate and their children? Read the rest of this entry »

in my mind

a thousand times

the past is relived

pushing the buttons

over and over

masochism

though I push him away…

there he remains…

slowly fading…

trying to say good bye

and holding on

and letting it all go

the past,

the past,

what was

what was never meant to be

but in that time

releasing

there is a less of a charge

but a part of me

that holds on

for some reason

perhaps that is where we are still

joined.

why is that I only write prose when I’m down about something someone

less identified….strangely, but still I

push and push my button

that has his name all over it.

The name I put there.

ugh.  love.  it all.

open and unattached.

what ever that means.

Here’s an experiment, see if you get anything from this video I made, transmitting therapeutic love….Reiki, energy therapy, prana….anytime you need a pick me up through out the day, watch this video and feel and remember your connection to Source.

Energy therapy

Sometimes, watching TV has it rewards. Not that I don’t love the wry comedy of The Office, or the raunchy/edgy comedy of The Family Guy, but some tv shows, have moments of inspiration where I would least expect it. I sometimes get hooked on watching Dancing with the Stars, because it’s fun to watch them dance, and I learn a few tips about different types of ballroom dancing and being more nimble and flexible when dancing with men (Latin and ballroom dancing I rarely do and it’s hard for me to follow when my natural tendency is to lead)…

When I heard that award-winning actress Marlee Matlin was going to be on the show, I thought, wow, will she be able to pull it off? And she does. She just swept the floor with her partner…feeling the music, swaying, it’s truly inspirational, if you didn’t know who she was, you’d never know that she can’t hear the beats. It lives in her. It’s truly amazing to watch her, and the inspiration of going beyond personal, societal and medical limitations–it proves to me the limitless possibilities of the human condition, connected to the divine, motivating her to just go for it.

I salute her for grace, love, beauty and strength…and her agile dancing abilities. Makes me want to shake it…I need to go dancing….!!!