everything, and ALL media in this country, so says someone. Maybe true. This did NOT begin with GWB and it DID begin with Reagan. WHat's the saying, past is prologue?
My neighborhood, the lower east side of Manhattan, has been infested with FBI agents (or some variation) and otherwise sinister people wanting to sabotage the liberal and humanitarian activism that existed here. That's why rents skyrocketed and Starbucks is everywhere and other retail and not to mention pornography, sexual harassment and the like. How do I know? I lived through it. Gentrification and the endless in your face advertisement and oh......but no one is talking about the impact this has on women. Suddenly, we're being told to spend all our time on makeup and buying stuff, plus having no privacy or leisure, or education: all of which is vital to women freeing themselves. This "makeover" of my neighborhood is a negation of everything women have fought for and won. I thought it was over, but apparently this is only the beginning. Yep, that's my statement, and you can react however you choose, but there it is. OK.....on to the next stage.
I need and hope to give lots of love, and otherwise good stuff. Oh, now, especially now!

I said in a discussion with the RCs that I was leaving the country and advising them to do the same. Someone said, what's that going to solve? Someone else said that if 11 states voted against gay marriage then GWB IS the right prez for this place. But someone I know once wrote, "Sometimes it's better to fight your battles from your own strategic location rather than on the enemies' turf." And I'm thinking that this place is not for me, and the corporate world is not for me, and even my family: we're related by blood but we're not even friends.We aren't speaking, because I have decided to travel and not get a job, just yet. Pretty soon I'll be forced to work again, like everyone else. What am I going to do? I have to get out of here.......and I have to work at what I want to do (acting, performing) but I just feel so bludgeoned right now in the US. THe fear is getting to me. I'll have to go ahead, and feel the fear. I know it's a dangerous world out there, I know there's danger in the middle east and latin america, so why do I want to go? Because I haven't seen enough of the world and I need more than just work.....and I've said this before but I'll say again that if I ever have kids I will raise them very differently. Hopefully they won't become young conservatives but I'll love them and be their parent always, and they will do whatever makes them happy. If they want to dance, to be doctors, archaeologists, writers, pharmacists, whatever the hell they want to do, I'll back them up. And I'll send them around the world myself.

OK things that make me happy:

watching movies
cleaning my house
getting money
getting on a plane/train/bus for a trip
being on the trains in other cities (something about learning their system)
quiet time spent alone in my place
my kitties West and Punzie
being with interesting/cool people
going for walks
yoga
reading emails
soap
being in a good play/film

sigh on the last one.......seems I have to choose btween travel and acting......what can I do????????????????
There must be something