Twilight Trips in 50 countries

So, I can’t complete my list of things to do before I leave tonight. I am far too tired. It’s a little past 4:20 AM and I have to get to the city in the early afternoon tomorrow and its going to kill me at this point. So, i went to dinner at Matsuyamas, my favorite restaurant in Novato, if not anywhere, with Sean’s family. We had a really nice meal and I talked about my spinal tap and they gave my advice to called this guy from KGO radio and we also talked about legalizing drugs and LSD and suing people and bathrooms that sanitize themselves. LOL, interesting dinner conversation haha. The lady at Matsuyamas always calls me a beauty and treats me so well. I love them there. Then Sean and I moved a mattress out of his room and we went to blockbuster and only I went in and I got 3 blueray movies, death race, Lucky # Slevin, and Sunrise or something like that. I met an older man named Bob who I helped pick out movies and he talked my ear off about movies he watched and his wife having passed and more and he was a really sweet older man. I do love talking to older people and I really want to volunteer at an old folks home. But he liked me a little too much and tried to get my number after we left the store and he asked me to lunch later today but I really said I can’t. I felt sooo bad because I have never had to turn down someone in their 70’s or something who was just sooo nice, but I figure he wasn’t just interested in polite conversation with me, but truly I don’t know that. I just think it would be a little weird going to lunch with a stranger who is as old as my grandfather… Sigh… But anyways. I also found out at the video store that most of the video stores are going out of business and possibly even blockbuster!!! :0 aggghhh!!! My dream is to work in either a video store or in a movie theatre for a student part time job when I get back and I am freaked out now. I just want to help people experience amazing movies that change their lives, is that too much to ask for? Anyways, we got home and Sean and I had amazing sex, I came a few times and was breathless by the end of it, we usually do it missionary and I love it that way because he is just in soo much control, but I like it when we change it up too so he pulled me to the edge of the bed and we did it that way for a while and then he flipped me over and I really enjoyed a n a l and that was awesome. He lay on my back afterwards, both of us out of breath, slowly our breathing returning to normal, I kiss what I can reach without moving, his hand, he kisses my shoulder in response. We lie there for a little longer in silence, his ontop of me, my wanting his always there ontop of me. I would lie there with him forever if I could in those moments. I don’t know what I am going to do without him. We live together practically. He is my warmth, my focus, my happiness, I love sharing things with him, we help each other and keep each other stuck in unproductiveness sometimes but its together so its kind of okay, I love watching him sleep, my cat loves him too, he may be a lot of things and we probably fight too much, but he’s mine, he’s my Sean and I love him. He always makes sure he pleases me 10 times over the first time I orgasm and he barely cares about his own, and the funny thing all I care about is him feeling just as good as me if not waaayy more. I just care about him soo much, I wish men could easily have multiple orgasms or that he could at least have his mind go blank with pure ecstasy once in a while. He’s a little too conscious when he comes, I am sometimes depending how the orgasm is, but the times when it is pure bliss are always the best and everyone should experience that. Anyways, so that was awesome and then we kissed and cleaned up and lied down together and kissed some more. Then we went downstairs to watch Death Race in HD and I made chicken flavored pasta which was just okay and we cuddled on the couch but it wasn’t that comfortable until later when I cuddled up next to him and lay my head on his strong and soft chest and listened to his heart beat. So, the movie ended and we cleaned up the kitchen and I sent a long e-mail to my travel agent for later today and now I am writing in you. Holly is staring at me and Sean is snoring just slightly looking as cute as ever. I need to join them now so my day isn’t even more screwed up. Alight, goodnight.  

Hello world! This is Charlene finally getting on her way to travel the world. I wanted to start this blog pre-trip so I get used to writing about my life and going-ons so it will become habit on my trip. I have been working on this trip for far too long but finally it has come to fruition. I am finishing up my last preparations to leave at some point in May now. I go to San Francisco to book the final dates for the trip tomorrow and I am enthralled. Finally, FINALLY! I have to still say I am a bit scared and nervous about this whole thing, not about my safety per say, but about my budget, the way I will feel about leaving, the way I will feel when I am gone, the aftermath of the trip which includes what will happen with my current boyfriend Sean, my friends that I love and will miss like crazy but who may forget about me, my family that isn’t very supportive of my trip and how they will handle my absence, the bit of debt I will have to pay off to my mom for a couple of G’s, where my head will be after it all, where my heart will be after, what I will want to now do and who I will now be, and soo much more. But I guess that all comes with a big change in life. And I have been thinking about/dealing with all of this for the past year and I still am not completely over it all. Maybe with the actual start of my trip I will start to work through those fears through experience. So, I really wanted to say what I have to do before I leave besides booking it tomorrow, my first and my last step.1. Booking the trip2. Making a list of what I need to buy/pack3. Packing4. Testing out my fully packed backpack and naming him5. Going to Travisa and finishing that up6. Booking travel insurance7. Booking all my hostels and having a list of the next ones to book while I am traveling8. Making a list of every embassy9. Making list of emergency contacts10. Making copies of all my documents11. Figuring out how to do my travel filmAnd I will add more later. I have to go to dinner with my boyfriend’s family right now and go to blockbuster to exchange some films. It’s a lovely day today in Novato, its been in the 60’s and 70’s and breezy. It’s very peaceful outside but inside my head and my house I’m a jumbled mess of fear, excitement, and stress. I wish I could just relax and get this shit overwith and on my way. But things are never so easy. Life is never so easy. I am now off, goodnight and I will talk to you more soon.