Copy from Written Journal on 6/1272005

I sit a little meloncholy and wonder about our cycle of life ever since Cristina told me about Vince, Colleen and Joey. Frankly it has been the only thing in my head for the last few days. A beautiful family, loosing the life so close, loosing a Dad, Husband, Brother and Son...loosing a life so young, loosing oneself at the middle stage of life.

As I travel through this journey, I realized that it is not all fun....that lifes cycle continues.

Even before I heard the news I was thinking of growing up and old. The beautiful girl that was my host said that the thought of having children above the joyous part, is so that you do not get lonely in your old age. As her belly grows and many belly's grow of those I love, I wonder if this can be true. I have never given it much thought but it does make sense and the relationship we have with my parents, supports such a theory. How realistic it all came to mind...as the clock ticks.

So has one family grieves with sadness, I am thankful that Colleen has Joey to brighten her life and spirit and vs. versa during the happy and lonely moments of life.

I have always said that the middle of life is upon me and with time alone, I think about how much that statement is really true.

So in spirit, I send my love and joy for all the new children coming into the lives of those I love! Youe cycle of love is just beginning!!!