March 26, 2005
I took this one from my friend Morgan:
You know quite well, deep within you, that there is only a single magic, a single power, a single salvation...and that is called loving. Well, then, love your suffering. Do not resist it, do not flee from it. It is your aversion that hurts, nothing else. --H.H.
this one is from the Bootsnall members forum, fancy that:
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool
To cry is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out for another is to risk involvement
To express feelings is to risk exposing your true self
To place your ideas, your dreams before a crowd, is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return
To live is to risk dying
To hope is to risk despair
To try is to risk failure
But these risks must be taken, for the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing
A person who risks nothing dies nothing, has nothing, and is nothing
They say avoid pain and suffering
But they cannot feel, grow, change, love, learn
Chained by their attitudes, they are slaves
They have forfeited their freedom
Only a person who risks is free
Here you can see pictures of the Berg festival in Erlangen took on June 2004. The pictures were taken two different days. The festival lasts for 10 days (think so) and well it is a buch of people drinking beer and listening to live bands playing old known songs... including German traditional music. Loads of fun, specially when everybody start dancing on the tables!.
Yes, that is a litter beer jar.... I am in Germany, have to learn to drink beer properly!
In this pictures you can see Hugo (Venezuela), Jorge y Cristina (Colombia). That was the Latino day. I went there with all my latinamerican friends.
That was the day at the berg with my classmates you can see Pia from Tailand and Chandra and Bones from India.
This is intended for the visitors of this blog to have a quick idea of the most important things about me:
Actual occupation: Msc. Chemical Engineering Student
Place: Universität Erlangen-Nürnberg
Side occupations: Student work at the University
Semester: Last one
Last exam: I have no more exams !!!
Actual Temperature: 13°C
Master Thesis at: ????
I will keep on filling the blanks when the time comes and I get to know.
March 13, 2005
It has been a while since I wrote the last time. Things just keep on happening in my life, things that make me live my life faster. I had no time left for writting, or to explain it better I have not been in the mood to.
I wrote an email, no long ago, may be about 3 weeks ago to my friends telling that I was feeling contempt with life.
Now life is showing me its darkest side. It just hits you when you are more vulnerable. I tend to think life is kind of an old fashion teacher, who hits you badly for you to learn the lesson. Although I just saw a programm on Tv that says that people tend to block bad and sad experiences. This probably wipes off all the learn with suffering theory.
However I do think suffering makes you stronger. I guess you necessarely do not learn how to avoid getting hurt, but you learn to get out of the pain.
Long time ago I hear a phrase, which I would like to cuote now:
"Human heart is like a bag of flour, the more it gets hits, the harter it gets"
I honestly hope my heart does not get as hard as a rock.
March 01, 2005
Bueno ya que insisten escribo algo en mi blog en español, aunque la verdad no se que. No puedo traducir lo que he escrito en ingles, asi que aca escribo cosas que solo pueden leer mis amigos de habla hispana. Qué les parece?
Bueno por ahorita no se me ocurre nada pero pronto prometido que escribo.
El español si que es bonito!!
February 28, 2005
Although my visit to Vienna was rather a matter of running away, I enjoyed my time there. I had not been there before, not even in Austria.
My friend Morgan guided me through my first ride around the city, using the bus lines that surround the city center forming a ring.
It was so nice to see her again...she is just amazing, she just keep on smilling while telling me about Vienna and how everything in the city just has to be in "balance".
Examples of this balance thing come from Vienna's great past. The most impressive example are the museums of art (Kunsthistorischesmuseum) and natural history (Naturhistorischesmuseum). I stepped in the middle of the Maria Theresienplatz and tried to find the differences between both buildinng located one in front of each other. In reallity each museum is like a mirror of the other, except for some scultures on the top of the buildings, which although look similar, are actually different!!!. I spent some time figuring that out!.
February 26, 2005
This is kind of an explanation why I decided to keep a blog, though I would like to think of it as my web page. May be because here I can publish whatever I want and there is the chance people might actually read it!
If you think I found the blog myself, well you are wrong. I do not surf that much. It was the idea from my friend Morgan, "thanks". She got one and I though to myself that it is a good way for my friends to keep track on me. Don't you think? In this way, if you are wondering sleepless in the middle of the night about me. You can simple get into this web page and find out.
Besides, as you may know and if don't now you do, I like to write. Although I have always write for myself and my own sake. I decided to get back into one of my forgotten hobbies. I have to face it, I do express myself better this way. Or at least when I write in spanish.
So here it is, my blog, you are wellcome to add comments on it. I will be reading them and you will find at least every week a new piece of mind. Actually you should do it, otherwise I wouldn't know if you are reading it or not.
By the time there are just few pictures, but I will be adding more in the future. I guess I should add a permanent "in construction" sign. See, more reasons to keep on checking it.
Just one more thing, the blog does not mean you stop writing me personal emails or that I will stop writing them!
February 25, 2005
I think this bunny is just cute. I had to post it!!!
Ps. Not as cute as the cat, though.
February 23, 2005
Few days ago I remember myself fighting with my friend Morgan over who are more unfriendly: Germans or Austrians. Honestly my six days in Vienna do not make me an expert making friends in Austria. I have been living in Germany for more than a year and despite I am rather shy. I am not the only one who thinks that making “native” friends in Germany is not an easy job.
However today I have a rather inspiring experience. I have been working as an assistance of a PhD. student of the particle technology department for almost a month now. Often I had to work in the computer room together with other assistants and a couple of PhD students who are all the time around. I have spoken with them, but nothing else than hallo, or how are you doing?. Well, that is the state of almost all my relationships with Germans. This afternoon, I had a long talk with one of them , he was amazed to know that the capital from Ecuador was Quito, and was asking everyone if they knew. I can stop myself from laughing at the situation. I guess by now almost the whole department knows it. Anyway, we chat more and all of the sudden I found myself talking to him about my plans ( as if I knew what I am going to do next). He told me about his ex girlfriend who left him last year just before Christmas after 10 years of a relationship. He asked my when I was going back to Ecuador?. That is a question that keeps on popping on my head lately. I answer as usual: I will come back when I am done, but hopefully just for visiting. He asked surprised from my answer: Hast Du keine Heimweh? (Aren’t you Homesick?). This time I did not doubt and answer with an straight no. I told him about my determination to stay in Europe to study or find a job. He looked at me and said: well you just need to find the right man. I laugh again. He continued: You are latina, beautiful, smart and have a pretty smile I am sure there are plenty of boys crazy for you. Then I could not stop laughing, not because of what he said. It was because that was the first time I’ve heard such a compliment form a German boy. I mean outside bars or discos. I used to think they just dislike compliments. Although, by now my heart has an owner, I have to say I was flattered. I haven’t heard a nice compliment for so long and in Ecuador that is kind of the most common thing on the world.
So, from now and on I will think twice before saying again that most Germans are not that friendly.